Women’s History Month and Aging…#317

What is it to Grow Old?

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As many of you know, I have been fighting a problem that my doctors cannot diagnose; they sent me home after every test known to man or woman.  At the beginning I was walking about six miles a day; at the end of the hospital stay, I was walking with assistance walker, now a cane.  The weakness holds to me like a leach.  After a hospital stay, I have been undergoing therapy at home; I am no better today than my first day home.

This weakness is interfering in my life!  Therapy takes up most of my days; no less than four hours a day, with little progress.  I take care of the needs of my new puppy and myself, there is no energy for anything else.  Simple household chores can be monumental; as are the self care needs.  The challenge that I face daily is the need to work on my writing and painting projects.  That time is limited the reason, no energy which brings me to what I plan to discuss in this post, women and depression.  The Covid affects older adults, twice as many women over men experience depression.  Nonetheless, geriatric depression added onto medical conditions and certain disabilities can be life threatening.  Depression can be misdiagnosis, as it mimics normal age related issues.

Depression in the older adults can reduce their quality of life, and it increases risk of suicide.  There is no single cause of depression in any age group. Some research indicates that there could be a genetic link to the disease. However, biological, social, and psychological factors all play a role in depression in older adults.

If you’re experiencing depressive symptoms and suicidal thoughts, it’s important to get help. With the right interventions, depression is treatable, and suicide is preventable.  Learn to recognize the symptoms’ of depression; if you have an elderly relative talk to them about the possibility of being depressed.

I myself suffer from depression, I have always felt that creative people are all depressed in some way; it derives from our need to create, artist, writers.  My symptoms were lack of interest, unable to sleep, feelings of hopelessness, a strange sadness; feelings of no quality of life.

I share t his with you as there may be others of all ages that are living under a dark cloud of depression.  Try to understand your feelings and discuss it with your physician, and always remember that you are not alone.

Below is a piece  that I have written/created  during these dark days, it helps to continue to create.  I am fine; each day brings renewed hope for a long and bright future.

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Watching the body lose its shape, the eyes no longer sparkle, now small orbs in a wrinkled face.  Strength disappears, limbs grow stiff, and every function less accurate and every fiber of  being frail and overwrought with life. Life is not what in our youth we dreamed it would be!  The aging was not to be mellow and soft as the sunsets glow, these golden day’s  decline with a hurried speed.  To see the world from a pinnacle with creative eyes, a heart deeply moved.  Yet we mourn to feel and see the past, the years that are gone forever. Being old is to spend long days not once believing that we were ever young.  Confined in the cold prison of living day to day with weary pain. It is to suffer, being only half of what we use to be; feeble are many who are hidden away.  Remembrance gone, no emotion, no life. This is the last stage of life, frozen within ourselves, soon to be an empty ghost; whom do we blame? We blame no one, no regrets, being old is a privilege. 

©2021.elizabethannjohnsonmurphree

13 thoughts on “Women’s History Month and Aging…#317

  1. I love this. It is very important to get help. I struggled with depression for years. I got some help I needed and I am living my best life because of that. Thank u for sharing your thoughts. It’s very important when others are dealing with this same thing to feel they aren’t alone.

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  2. I totally get this today and understand what you mean about growing older. Thank you for your quote!
    Do not regret growing older – it’s a privilege denied to many.
    That’s important to remember. My dad died when he was 51. He was my best friend, and now I have outlived him by 24 years. As I reach milestones of my families’ ages of death, I sometimes forget to be thankful for my days still being here.
    I regret not appreciating the truly “golden days” of my youth.
    Who knew youth was truly wasted on the young.

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  3. You are an amazing writer. Thank you for following my blog – I’m really glad I’ve found yours! Your piece at the end of this post was really moving – it’s so inspiring that you can still feel gratitude and view growing old as a privilege, despite the depression. I’m in my mid twenties and have been living with depression and anxiety for around five years now – I guess on the flip side of what you’ve written, I worry that I’m wasting/have already wasted what people love to tell me are ‘the best days of my life.’ But it’s wonderful that I can read your writing and feel less alone, even if we are looking at life from such different perspectives. Thank you so much 🙂

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  4. Many of us can develop coping skills to deal with depression. I have been able to do that. But age brings on many new challenges in our daily activities; often, our partners don’t understand. Many words can go into the blank in the following sentence: “I cant ________ as well as I used to.” The list gets longer with each passing day.

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